fly away...

something had been hovering my mind tonite. i am really worried that my rats will die =( when i tried to feed them just now, 2 of the rats' mouth got blood and they somehow puked out blood with the medicine during the feeding. i dunno if it's my stupid fault to poke them accidentally in their gut causing them bleed or it's them who tried to bite my gavage tube thus got injury. really very scared now. i dun wan them to die cos of me =( i'm sorry mickey no. 17 n 18, but u two really struggled just now, i cant let u go n u need ur medicine.

maybe i'm just expecting too much. no expectation, no disappointment.