sometimes the sweetest words, loving phrases and concerns are not said to the one u feel closest to, the one u love and care the most. i tink i'm one of the stupid ppl who practice that. i tend to hide my feelings, say the opposite words and may even vent my frustrations on them at the end of a stressful day, believing that they will not be angry cos they're the ones whom will understand my true feelings n still love me even when i do so. now i dunno if i had over-practiced that.. kinda regret it. i'm terribly sorry if i had hurt you. i do care abt u a lot, i care your every actions, your every words, perhaps tat's why i get irritated when i think too deeply into ur words.. i wan to tell u how much i care but sometimes the words just dun come out. sorry for my ignorance, arrogance, bad temper.. maybe i expected too much out of you too. =( sorry mummy.. although i know u will not read this post.. i love u.

anyway.. pls dun tell me how much u wan to go out n meet up with me n say hope to see me when u free, when u dun even remember correctly when is my birthday for 3 consecutive years! this is making me v.upset.. for someone whom i had been caring so much over these years, and me always trying my best to prepare ur gift n plan ur bday nicely. now u dun even rmb my correct dob. i really dun mind if u tell me u're busy so cant meet me this week but pls dun forget my bday.

yayy i'm looking forward to tmr, sat and sun! =)))

tmr meeting peipei for dinner at marina sq. haha i just realised it'll be the 1st nite of F1. i bet it'll be crowded over there! so shuang. tmr morning decki is going to drive me to school! no need to squeeze mrt.. haha so nice of him! =D
sat meeting my og girls for dim sum buffet.. after that meeting grace n gang for dinner!
sun afternoon meeting my darling 13yaos girls-exclusive for prawning at pasir ris prawn pond.. town park there. girls, let's meet at 2pm at pasir ris interchange!! i'm sooooo looking forward to the prawning. wanted to try it for such a long time. i bet hx is looking forward too =))

goodbye shaun! have a safe journey n smooth flight back!! these 3 months passed so quickly that u're now gg back already. i think u maybe stunned by the good or bad changes that occurred in each and every of us in this less-than-1-yr time. the stories u hear, the things u see. sometimes even myself dunno if these changes in us are for the good or bad.. but i guess somethings we just cant control or reversed to what it used to be.

the moment u walk into the gate at airport just now.. i really started missing you liao. sigh.. not much time to spend with u when u're back n now u're gone alr.. no matter what, pls dun forget us k. we're 13yaos!! really pei fu you for not crying just now.. if i were u, i might have burst out crying before i even enter the gate!

ok. time to slp alr.. nites

freaky.. saw porridge guy for the 2nd time on bus in 2 consecutive days! i almost burst out in laughter just now cos i was smsing ry tat he's gg to sms me, then zun zun his sms comes in! grrr can i stop having these lth?

tmr gonna start another round of feeding liaoz. hopefully this so-called midterm break will be a little more relaxed than normal days. just visited my fatty mickeys this evening. one of them so hum ji! he wan to escape la. i have an aim and tat is to tame them to guai babies. =)

anyway, thanks my dear 13yaos. thanks for the bday cake, the makeup set n aso the fishball noodles in case u all dunno where the $ went to. lol love u all loads *muacks* =D

i had booked air tix back hk alr. will be gone from 7-22 dec! dont miss me ya =p let's have x'mas party at my hse. i will go psycho my mum soon to lend out our hse during xmas.