supposed to go and play badminton with my lab mates today (all the 5 honours students) but then the 2 girls got some last min stuffs to attend to, so left with me and alex n 'jerry yan' wahaha!! went pgp to play. and i never had such a funny badminton session! i really laugh till my tummy wanna explode! all the serious/relax, tyco/skill, in/out, prince/king/queen, spike/dropshoot, sunday/friday. it sounds normal here but when they say n use it just now, it's super hilarious! haha the laughings caused me to miss those front balls which i claim i am good at it! lol.

needs more breaks to study n relax.. and i wan to wake up late! only 6-7hrs of slp per nite is just not enuff for a pig like me..

feeling depressed again. i guess this feeling will stay with me till end of sept! =( having another batch coming, so my one month procedure will repeat after this round.

i am a very bad researcher. i am a murderer. who can be more careless n cruel than me? haiz.. really feel like crying. my mind is occupied by the death of my 2nd rat today. i found a dead rat agn this morning.. its body is cold n stiff. it mus have died long time ago due to rigor mortis seen. i am very bad. my tears are goshing out. then my LO came to dissect it, i can see all its organs and when she said his lungs are a little red (meaning i had caused bleeding in his lungs due to my stupid hand inserting the tube to the wrong place) i feel like an empty soul since then.. why am i so bad? very scared tat it may happen agn. everyday just carry hope to sch that none will die.. really developing a phobia in feeding them =( i cant help but worry whenever i deal w my mickeys just now. anyway they can not cheap at all!! one rat is equal to the price of 250 plates of chicken rice and i just wasted 500plates of chicken rice this week =(((

sorry mickey 16. i always tot u're the most guai of all.. but u left me too. go find mickey 19 asap and have some company in the future k.

tough decision making time again. add/drop. i need some clue

many things left unsaid and undone. when will things improve? i'm dying from the permanent prgressive fatigue!!! lol. everyday need to wake up at 6am n reach sch ard 8 30, then stay all the way till 5 30+pm.. after tat still got to teach piano.. by the time i reach home it's already 9 plus! there're simply not enuff time to rest.. it's a vicious cycle. feeling a little depressed everyday when i reach home.

luckily some ppl brighten up my day.. like frens and kieran. a super notti boy but very sweet to me. he'll ask me why i dun have lead in my mechanical pencil den give me a lead and remind me to prepare at least 2 leads in the pencil. then he'll ask me why i dun have a pencil case ( cos today no lesson, so i just put in a pen n pencil in the bag pocket) and says if i bring a pencil, i must bring an eraser too.. after tat i ask him to refill my bottle till 200ml only since i'm gg home alr and he ask why i wan so little only, aint i thirtsy.. haha very cute boy but very notti to his maid, always bully her one! tsktsk.. hope he'll do well in his piano exam this thurs n dun waste my effort n his mum's money haha his mum aso very nice to me.. always pay on time, give me drinks and very polite. and yest she asked if i have a bf.. i was so shocked to hear tat cos she just ask me out of nowhere. so funny! when i said i dun have, she said nvm slowly find.. haha cute lo

anyway, swam 12 laps today in less than 1 hr. yayy so happy. i wan to train my running someday soon! maybe fri...

你终于都走了 离开了我 离开了你的朋友们... 我会永远永远祝福你 希望你会在另一个地方活得好好的

today is a bad day. everything went wrong. i lost my earrings. i love it so much. and mickey no. 19 passed away =( then saw sth tat make myself feel very unhappy.. cried a bit on the bus. cant help it. mickey no.19.. i love u.

cant control what i'm feeling n thinking rite now. if onli i can choose what to face n what not to. so many question popping out of my mind. when will true self show? i need to noe. years come n go, people come n go. those who went off came back agn, those we want them to stay walked off instead. will u not leave me behind?

sch starts today. went to find my mickeys this morning and i discovered that mickey no.19 is very very cold, soft n weak. he dun even move when i lift him up n feed him. really unlike his usual 'talkative' (squeaks a lot) n lively self.. although he's one of the more guai ones. i am really worried that he may die!! acty i had predicted sth to happen on him as his weight drops everyday!!! keep patting to wake him up in case he's sleeping but he's not. went back to inform my LO abt it and went to find the vet at ahu. sidetrack a bit, the vet is very charming haha.. noticed him since the lab course =p keep looking at him as he explains wahaha.. anyway he said we need to do blood test for him asap to check the blood glucose as it maybe due to the treatment given. till now aso dunno why. i hope the charming vet will save him!

it's been a while since i ran. gg to swim tmr during break!! =)
on a spree again. haha cannot stop.