i felt like losing control of my financial assets altho for me it's just one lonely n shrinking bank acc! haha. 4-digits money had been flowing in and out this week due to purchase of packages n stuffs.. when i see my bank figures, they look foreign to me cos i cant rmb all the items that i had paid for and always discover money disappearing from my bank for no reason. =x i need to recall them properly and hope nobody owe me money as i am quite forgetful abt who borrowed money from me! haha.

yest was a painful experience for me. sobs. went to see a tcm doc at bishan. ok la he's pretty good but i am still feeling the pain (which he alr warned me that it will linger ard for 2-3days). when i first get there, he measured my blood pressure at both arms. he discovered tt my right arm bp is ard 10mmHG (just a unit for bp) lower than my right arm. tts quite bad. so he said he knew my left leg got blood clots tt obstruct blood flow therefore causing my knee pain n stuffs (fyi, the blood vessels crossover at pelvis area). so zun!!

then he checked my leg n showed me my legs are not balanced! (left leg is shorter than right leg) tts cos i dislocated my leg when i fell down in the past and i wasnt aware of tt. the relocation of legs is DAMN PAIN! i keep screaming. den he checked my back n said he need to 'release the blood clot'... he poked 3 holes at the relevant acupoints den immediately 'ba guan'.. the procedure is 10x the previous DAMN PAIN! this time i cant help but cried.. acty during the treatment i dunno wat he wanna do.. but after he took out the guan, he wiped off the blood clots (which is quite big. sth like mucus form) from my wounds. i was shocked! he acty used the vacuum created in the guan to suck out the blood clots fr my blood and squeeze out of tat tiny hole. so ya.. my wounds are all blueblack now! ): sigh.. gg back nx week agn. i hope after these, my legs are less pain la.

we're going to the zoo zOO ZOO, how abt you yOU YOU? lol!

i'm back from the zoo and i'm really really tired! kept dozing off on the bus and on my table. but it was a great day out! (: gg out w the kids are not an easy job at all. have to give them all the energy n attn u have. and i dun really have much energy left since i only slept for 4 hrs the previous nite! lol. i bet we all are tired due to lack of enough sleep! well, thks to marcus, we got free ride there.

after zoo, we proceeded on to S restaurant.. nice chit-chat session under the cold cold air con! haha (: it's gg to be damn funny when we are gg to have babies nx time. i will rmb what we said today. lol.

then, i went to teach my kid. i was damn tired by that time, but no choice.. luckily the mum paid me money in advance.. tt kept me awake for a while haha. the girl is very cheeky but had wonderful time playing with her.. we keep suaning and bullying each other. played hide n seek, recording of her human voice ring tone, recording stupid promises on my hp and many pri sch kids finger games e.g. chopsticks!

i need to sleep liao.. super sleepy! tmr have meeting agn. sians

i feel good to finally put down the burden in my heart.. after so long.. this 4th March will be exactly 1 yr from my one of my bravest days in my life. i'm thankful to everyone who's with me along the way. i can still rmb wk calling me in the midst of his lect to cheer me up (; thanks. and of cos my darlings! love ya~ nothing bothers me now. still frens for sure. but definitely just normal frens on talking terms. (:

things change. nothing will remain as happy as ever if u dun treasure it. something is just fated. when it's time to leave, it'll leave by itself. angie, right? *wink*

dears, i look forward to our future plans tog (: heez it'll be a bright n beautiful one~ jiayou!!